It’s Ok!

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As the hands of time tick on. Closer to it’s destination I am left wondering . . . is this it? What have I done with my life? I have nothing to show for it.

But then I stumbled upon Gemma’s latest post about time (Find it HERE), it never being too late and the idea that there is no need to rush.

I spoke to me. Soothed me. There is so much I want to do with my life. I am not ready. I am not settled. I have so much time ahead of me. In the upcoming months a few things are changing which you’ll soon be allowed to know about. Then after that it’s the next step. What that is I don’t know. I couldn’t say. But it’ll be awesome anyway.

I’d love to visit Vienna. Finish writing a book. Spend more time smelling the roses and watching the sun rise.

Here is to life. It’s not over till it’s over and until that time. Make it your bitch. There is no rush or hurry to do anything. The sun will still rise tomorrow. If today you want to eat pizza and binge watch Sitcoms. Do it. Go for it. (Have a slice on me)

Just remember to be happy. Not to judge your life against anyone else’s and to dance like the whole world isn’t looking. No regrets.


Now for a smile – Here is my first ever Facebook Profile Picture – Circa 2007.

I know what you are thinking – but what was I thinking!


 

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Avengers Infinity War – Non Spoiler review.

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Wow!

Last night I watched The Avengers Infinity War and what can I say!

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So this post is spoiler free as I don’t want to ruin the experience for anyone, so stick with me here as I attempt to tiptoe around the story trying to give as much information as I can while also trying to not give you anything at the same time – and just like Hulks punch it is proving hard going.

I am lost for words. On first reflection it was slower than the first Avengers. I love the first one because it runs so smooth but I felt this one changed speed a few times. Which isn’t a bad thing because let’s be honest they have a lot going on. But it builds nicely and just works on an impressive scale.

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What can I say without saying anything. Thanos is a brilliant bad guy – the reasoning behind his motives is somewhat logical in a mad kind of way and even the character development for him was stunning. They have managed to create the character so well that you feel as much emotion for him as you do the others. The emotions might not be the same but they are there non the less.

The teams were brilliant. Bringing everyone together worked so well. The bolshie arrogance of Stark mixed with the comical humor of Star Lord was genius. Spider-Man was a great inclusion throwing his young spirited naivety, yet willing to prove himself into the mix worked just as well as it did in Civil War and they also pair other great unlikely characters up which was something we never knew we needed but now just want to see again – *Cough* Thor and Rocket *Cough*

I was left with a few niggles here and there but I’m going to let it set in for a few days and then come back to it and see how I feel about them. That I think is standard with big films like this and alot of people I have spoken to have said similar things, but that in no way takes anything away from the overall amazing specticle I witnessed.

The ending left me somewhat in two minds. I want one result but think it’s more likely the other thought is more realistic. But that doesn’t change the magnitude of the film and what it means for the overall MCU world – we have seen this universe build and grow for ten years and this film is such a pay off that it’s everything we have wanted and more.

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Today the office is a bubbling pot of excitement as everyone is talking about the film, the theories, the trauma. It’s going to be one of those films that will be talked about and dissected for years to come. Leaving questions like – What have I witnessed? Where do we go next? How will we come back from this? To the point where someone has made a google sheet to label questions and thoughts so we can all throw opinions and answers into the mix.

Overall all I can say is the hype and build up did it justice – it’s doesn’t let you down and is a MUST see. If you enjoy the Marvel films even a little bit you will love this one. It’s a long film but from the very start you are thrown into this world and left shocked that the time has vanished. You won’t want it to end and could sit through it all again. I am already planning my second viewing as I think a few watches are needed just to help digest the sheer awesomeness of this masterpiece.

Mentally prepare yourself – it’s a thrill ride and I promise you will love it!

 

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Lost in Life.

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I’m not sure where this post is going or what its even called.

(I assume the title above is fitting. But as I write this I have nothing planned)

Over the past day or so ive realised something about my self and my personality. Which is always dangerous to self criticise and evaluate yourself but I went there – and what I found made sense. It made me think about every past exploit and choice I’ve made.

My findings – I have no drive.

Wait what does that even mean. Now you are wondering. Where does he park his car? Or not. Sorry for the dad joke.

I mean Drive / Dedication / Motivation. So many times I have had an idea. Something new to look into. Usually job related. I do research and plans and then never go anywhere with it because I never follow it through.

The biggest one in my past is film making. I love it so much. I wanted to set up a production company and go freelance. All planned. Named. Cards printed. But just getting that umph to start it never appeared. Another example was setting up an etsy shop to sell Groomsmen gift boxes. Working out the costs and the realistic demand for it. But again after all that work put in – I did nothing with it.

Same again when it comes to writing scripts and even a children’s story book. I begin full of life and positivity and then let it fizzle out when it comes to commitment.

I think it boils down to a fear of the unknown. Leaving my stable reliable old job to take that plunge and go it alone. Risk that stability and just go for it. Scary right.

My latest idea in the planning stages (which will remain a secret for the moment) is a similar thing. I don’t think it will take off or amount to anything.

I’m lost. Left wondering the world unsure as to what I want to do when I grow up. Does anyone else get this? A sense of being lost and unsure.

I think of recently the only thing I have kept going is this blog and I’m still in the baby steps of this. Ideally I would love to get to a point where I can make this self-sufficient and make this my work and job.

One day hey.

Sorry for the rant / over sharing. But you know what they say. I’ll work it all out one day and it will be good.

Until then. Lets just smile and get on with it.

Peace ✌

Dealing with Time.

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TimeSomething I have noticed as I have gotten older and become a “Responsible Member of Society” is that I have no time for anything and this is something I really struggle with; managing my time and finding a harmonious level where everything can work as one.

When I was younger, I would go to work, come home and do what I like – spend hours playing Playstation or going out. But now days in this adult life that luxury is long gone.

I get home now after working 7.30am – 5pm (five days a week) to a list of chores, taking the washing down and putting it away, putting a new load on, cleaning up from the night before and occasionally running the hoover round the flat before taking the bins out and then finally sitting down. But by that time I need to look at cooking some tea – so I go off and do that. Once more getting a chance to sit down eat and catch up with the GF.

The standard generic “How was your day?” and “Oh what happened with blah blah” conversations pop up and then before we know it’s getting time to think about having a shower and going to bed.

Where does the time go?

It is the same for me at the weekend, by the time the boring adult life stuff is done I am left tired and out of time to start something I want to do.

Obviously this isn’t always the case and some nights or weekends I have less “Chores” to do but still after working the 9 half hours I spend at work I am just so tired, like actually exhausted. So there are nights and times (like tonight. . . shhh don’t tell the GF) that I have a few couple of hours where I plan to cook a pizza, blog and play Playstation.

When it comes to time management for out of work activities – mainly blogging and media work, I just struggle so much to find the drive. My office job is so long that it makes coming home feel amazing but then I only have a couple of hours before I have to go to sleep or I know I will be ruined the next morning trying to wake up at the crack of dawn.

In a perfect world I would love to not have the office job. To be a self employed media mogul – if that was the case I 100% know I would schedule my time so much better. I would get up at a good time, unlike the ungodly hour I currently have to claw my way out of bed. Have a nice healthy breakfast, probably start going back to the gym for an hour or so, then home to do some writing, marketing and boosting of this lovely blog. Lunch, a few odd chores, then back to “WORK” – promoting media work, looking for clients and maybe the occasion Youtube video of a cat wearing a top hat – or something trivial. But you know what I mean – I am constricted to this lifestyle I have, trying to fit everything around the huge chunk of time I spend at the office a week.

I guess if I can get over this hump and once things pick up and start looking up maybe I can get to that goal one day – I don’t see it coming for some time as you know bills have to be paid. But like Journey said – Don’t Stop Believing.

WOW was that a little bit cheesy, oops. Sorry!

If anyone has any tips or tricks on how to help me with my time management I would love to hear from you, to try a new routine and work on something, anything, to improve and spread my capabilities across all platforms.

This is part the reason why I LOVE the idea of being a stay at home dad – I know that sounds crazy, trading a 9 1/2 hour day at work for a lifetime commitment of a child. But I think I would be able to handle that a lot better than I do currently. You know – Feed Baby, Take Baby for a walk, Blog while baby naps, feed GF and Baby – Sleep Repeat.

Yes I know that is WAY to simple an outlook on stay at homes parenting, I admire and fully respect what you do and will do the same when the time comes – but I can dream.

So until that day, or until I win the lottery, this is my life. I have to make of it what I can.

Wish me luck!